end of 2008

2008...

a year filled with countless ups & downs.... absolutely!
Feb '08 - Glamorous 20th Bday with Levin @ home
Mar '08 - Clique: One @ Siloso Beach Resort ;
graduated from Temasek Poly
Apr '08 - started working at Browhaus
May '08 - still working
June '08 - enrolled in Curtin Uni
July '08 - farewell party, whole new life in perth
met awesome friends who became a big part of my life in perth
met him who made me smile but at the same time made me fall so deep & cry so much...
Aug '08 - parents came over ; mazda 2 baby!
sep '08 - back to spore for a week
oct '08 - back to perth ; mugging sessions began ; commencement of work @ DJ
nov '08 - exams! ; work! his bday.
dec '08 - xmas with joy & friends ; nye celebration

there was a period of time when i was super affected by how things turned out to be.
i was being delusional, unable to get outta it....
those were the worst months of year 2008.
but im glad im over it.
i really hope things will change for the better next year.
better people will come my way.

not forgetting the fun i had with the clique before i began my whole new life in perth.
and the fabulous boys who have always been there for me.
not in any order of importance aye!
levin, rey, bryan, aviel, keith, jason, winfield, louis, nigel.
thanks mates!

lets all hope for a better new year!
and if U do see this, happy new year to U, wherever u are.
wishing U all the best in your new year, and i hope U'll be happy & find peace in life.

to nadia, farhana & yarub - thanks for all the joy, laughter and fun you guys brought to my life! :)

cheers!

missing spore...

before i begin..............
here's a word of advice to that jackass who tried to spam my tagboard.
im so not affected *winks*
have fun spamming... i find it amusing!
i check my blog everyday to see what new insults u can come up with.
by spamming me, ure just telling me how popular i am & how much u notice me by even taking the effort to visit my blog!
so, if u really worship me that much, keep tagging...
i welcome all comments!

back to today's entry.....

ive got no idea why i have this sudden urge of getting on that jet plane and fly back to spore right away....
ive never felt this way before... lol
but then again, im afraid its gonna be the same as the previous time when i went back in sept, a trip that made me realise how ugly human

but come to think of it, its not that bad, really.
at least now ive learnt who to cherish more and who to fuck care 'bout.

Perth is giving me the time of my life!
everyday is just work, then chilling with friends at home.
be it doin' nth, or just watchin' dvd, we're happy the way it is now.
although we're missing Nadia terribly....
oh btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIA!!! be good bitch!! LOL

and yeah, i think im having a pretty balanced lifestyle now.
work on weekdays and party on weekends.
nothin' beats that!
thats all for now.

here's wishing everyone MERRY XMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!
have a joyful holiday :)

alone in Perth

silly girl alr back in spore. yes i miss u!

we were all high. hence the great smiles! lol

the night when i got fuckin' drunk @ metro's

ruby's

another night of ruby's

its been almost a month since exams ended n yes i'm still here in Perth.
all thanks to myself who chose to stay here in Perth to work. gosh, i'm really missing home......
i miss my big room, my confortable bed but hate the fact that i don't get to drive around in my own car.
i also miss the late night movies at cineleisure, the never-asleep city.
oh! and also the cheap karaoke cover charge.
its cheap as compared to the ones over here, AUD$55 per hour for the room!!
but obviously u can share the cost with your mates & they allow B.Y.O (bring your own drinks).

anw, nadia has gone back home & there's only farhana, yarub & me. and guess which is our favourite hangout now? Burswood Casino!
shitass!
we go there almost every night and its killing me!
i've been losing so much $$ to blackjack & baccarat.
well, i go there for the hot guys as well.....

haha Carl is sooooooooooooooooo hot!!!
can't stop staring at him. he's got such a nice butt! :)

btw... the clog is alive, all of a sudden!!!
God knows why.
well it doesnt really bother me.
its more of a place where all the fond memories are kept.
afterall, all good things come to an end.
but i'm glad to say, i've done my best & given my all.
so, even at the end of the day, when things don't work out, it's not gonna be my fault.
and probably we've all realised that this shit isn't such a biggie after all.
i guess gathering a fuckin' huge group of mates with totally diversified personalities & naming the group isn't a good way to make things work.
'cause afterall, most of 'em are just passerbys who stop & go....
yeah i guess it took me awhile to realise that.

OH! there's this really impt shit i wanna share with u mates.
christian found out i blogged 'bout him! surprisingly!
well, he asked me to remove that entry & i did.
its all good now.
guess its not so awkward anymore.
but i hate the fact that i bought him & his friends drinks at metro's.... and guess what?
they scooted off after that! dickheads!
seriously, i hate stayin' here in Perth.
there's seriously no shit to do!
like today, i didnt have to work. and the whole day, i was just rotting in my room, surfing the net & sleeping away.........
damn! i wanna go home! i miss my parents :(

i miss the crazy girls!!
i miss going to balmoral hotel with nadia & drinkin' pints of heineken!!!

exams are over!!

at last, exams are finally over!!!!

now's the time to work real hard man.
work is hectic, with endless things to do at intimate apparel department.
and i'm always late for work! gosh!

but the fun part is, i've been shopping! haha
feels good to shop, shop n shop. non-stop!
its gonna be summer soon, so have to get many many nice tops to hit the beach! lol
bought so many jeans as well, unlike my usual self.
maxi dresses, yeah baby!

all these sounds fun but... am gonna spend xmas alone.....
'cause everyone is gg back soon..... tsktsk.....
and i heard xmas here is lonely shit!
we shall see, mayb ill hook up with someone, and xmas shall be cosy xmas lol!

Cheers!

1CWQ236

introducing, the love of my life...... my best buddy, soulmate, companion.

hahaha it's my brand new car which i got on Aug 13th :)

its Mazda 2 Neo!!!

its red & fiery! just like me! LOL

okay, this is such a random post.

time to get back to my books!!!

CYA...

CHEERS!

life in perth

exams are nearing... next week!
yes, i've been studying, not to worry.
i don't pay so much school fees $$ for nothing yeah :)

anyway, ever since i got back from S'pore, i've been so busy i swear!
busy with work at David Jones & school assignments as well.
but no matter how busy i'm, i'll never cut clubbing off my life! :P
oh well, as fun as it sounds, i'm kinda getting sick of it.
endless drunk nights & drama..... i've had enough!

worthless jerks whom i always stupidly include in my life, arghhhh! be gone!
seriously, i'm sick of all these men trouble i'm giving myself.
i deserve to smile & have a fun life of my own!
oh well, at least for now, i'm gonna be mugging every night!
alrightey, before i sign off, here are some pics i took with qiqi hengyoyo during our lonesome clubbing night last sat! (girl, u know what i mean! LOL)

Enjoy & Cya!

empty trip

flown 2432 miles.

not totally empty but not as great as i expected.

i think i already have my life in Perth, thats why.
there're a few friends that i can't leave behind in S'Pore but i think after a few more months i'll be just fine.
no friendships last forever actually.

i just feel... someone that i've invested so much time, love & effort in... couldnt even be bothered to talk to me or say something to me to welcome me back. its more of disappointment than anger.
i thought by going away for awhile, things will be better but nope, its still the same situation.

i think this trip back is still worth it, because at least i've found out i don't have to deliberately find time to meet this friend anymore. well, i wouldnt even consider this person as my friend anymore. who needs this kind of friend anyway? i deserve better.

yeap.
but still, am thrilled to see Zach, Levin, Keith, Winfield and Edison.
thanks guys!

Thanks for all the comments!

surprisingly, even though i'm not in S'pore & haven't been updating my blog, there are still sweet friends who read my blog and tag on it.
Thanks :)

i'm better now, trying to stay away from men, trying hard not to get hurt anymore.
but i can't help but keep thinking about him.
just don't know why i just can't seem to get him.

he came back after a few weeks but now he's gone again.

he comes around as & when he likes.

and i swear i told myself not to fall in deep this time, but its just uncontrollable.

being away from my aj friends makes me more vulnerable.

simply because the guys whom i meet now love women & constantly have one thing on their minds.

one good thing, it finally made me have more confidence in myself 'cause i do attract guys after all! haha!
but attracting too many guys is never good. i'm always the one getting hurt.

i won't deny the fact that i'm loving my life here. my great friends whom i live with. my brand-new car. the environment. the lifestyle. its all good.

its just this one complicated issue that i never seem to be able to figure out.

i still miss singapore. my friends everywhere!

ending this post with pictures :)
once again, thanks for all the comments. keep it coming in!

hey all...

Perth has been treating me pretty well, except that the nightlife here hasn't been treating the Party whore well. haha, can't be compared to the usual places i go to back in Spore.

haha yeah i keep complaining about the lack of updated songs at clubs... other than that, the guys are quite hot and it's been making my heart beat faster than ever. hehe.
perhaps 'cause school hasn't started, that's why i bum around everyday and have no idea of where to hangout at times. yeah, i sleep late and wake up late.

over here, if you wake up late, don't even think of getting things done.

'cause by the time i wash up, get ready & take public transport to the malls, i'd only be left with half an hour to shop! lol, stupid i know.

being here alone also made me realise the importance of knowing how to take care of myself, and not let trivial matters affect me.
also made me realise how important certain people are to me.

like:
Levin (my boy who i've been calling non-stop as if my phone bill is paid by the govt)
Jason (who i've been webcam-ing with every night. haha he always stays up till 2, 3am just to webcam with me)
Keith (who never fails to console me when things crop up over here in Perth)
Val (who's been calling me as & when i ask her to... & has been listening to my stories about guys in Perth)
my parents (who keep asking me to webcam with them but i always refuse to! haha but never fail to send me $$$ :P)
my sis (who keeps asking me to webcam with my parents, who's travelling in NYC now, who keeps telling me to be careful when i'm out with guys alone)
Huimin (my hsemate, who's always been listening to me grumble & giving me heaps of advices about guys)
Joy (my newly-found big sis who brought my sis & i around and also promised to club with me when she returns from her vacation in Spore)
Thomas (my newly-found big bro who never fails to bring me out for drinks & then send me home safely even though he stays in the North while i stay in the South and also intro-ed me to many friends)

Thank God for these people! or else my life in Perth could be worst!

yeap yeap!

i'm really hoping to meet the right guy here....

i hope the guy from Mauritius will come back soon!!! :):)

here are pictures of some of the fun places in Perth.

Will definitely take more pics! Look out for them!

Northbridge (chinatown of Perth) many bars & clubs here :)

Brass Monkey (a good place to drink & chill out)

Perth train station

the deen, a must-go for most australians. but personally, i don't find it impressive at all.

take care y'all ;)

Perth

Perth Int'l Airport

209 Kent St, Erica Underwood House
Flat 43 Rm 4
Bentley, WA 6102

The slope i have to take all the time.

My flat, mine's on the 2nd level.

Welcome to Perth City, Murray St.

Tasting BaskinRobbins' ice-cream at Carousel, a suburb near my place.

my "walk-in" wardrobe :P

my super large desk.

the other side of the desk.

my pathetic little bed.

hey all...
its been a week since i've arrived in Perth.
did y'all miss me? :)

anyway, my sis has gone back to S'Pore already and i'm all alone now.
beginning to miss home more. and of course my dear boys.
but then again, i should try to adapt.

last weekend was crazy, club-hopped abit but clubs here can't be compared to clubs at home!
their music is seriously outdated.
the shops close damn early.
there's no where to linger around at night.
a movie ticket costs freaking AUD$12! take 12 multiply by 1.28... u do the math!
no more UOB discounted ticket. lol
cab metre jumps at a heart-thumping rate! scary!
oh well.

everything here is expensive.
boring also.
saddening also... cuz at about 7pm, its probably a ghost town alr.
when in spore, the night has just gotten started at 7pm.
the people here can start drinking as soon as 3pm!
and they queue to club at about 8, 9ish. crazy right?!
free entries to clubs, except certain better clubs.
drinks are FREAKING CHEAP! a pint of beer at 8 bucks, smaller one's at 5 bucks.
so if u club, u probably just needa bring 20bucks, that's if you've safely secured a ride home with friends or something.

aiyuh, nth beats S'pore luh.
anyway, i miss u guys loads! miss fri, sat & sun clubbing nights.

take care y'all.
i'll be back with more updates!

i love u guys!!!

Heaven Knows by Rick Price

Heaven Knows by Rick Price...
such an old song, but is still able to make my tears fall non-stop.
true enough...
maybe our hearts will find their way, only heaven knows.
always on my mind, from the time i wake up till i close my eyes.
though far away, it just keeps getting stronger, everyday.
my friends keep telling me, that if you really love someone, you've gotta set him free.

weekends come & go so soon..... its already saturday.
and tonight, we're gonna club... and tmr as well!
my last weekend in Spore, sure makes me treasure it more than ever.
but then again, it gets better when someone is there.
arghhhh... i should so slap myself!
no point holding on to something that'll be futile at the end of the day.

5 more days before i say goodbye to him, to everyone.
i really should stop prioritising something that's totally not worth my time & effort.

afterall, i'm never anyone's priority either.
if you say i am, prove it! the fact is you don't, so shut it!
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Heaven Knows by Rick Price
She's always on my mind.
From the time i wake up, till i close my eyes.
She's everywhere i go. She's all i know.
Though she's so far away, it just keeps getting stronger everyday.
And even now she's gone, i'm still holding on.

So tell me where do i start, cause it's breaking my heart.
Don't wanna let her go.
Maybe my love will come back someday, only heaven knows.
And maybe our hearts will find their way, only heaven knows.
And all i can do, is hope and pray.
Cause heaven knows.

My friends keep telling me, that if you really love her.
You've gotta set her free.
And if she returns in time, I'll know she's mine.
But telll me where do i start, cause its breaking my heart.
Don't wanna let her go.

Maybe my love will come back someday, only heaven knows.
And maybe our hearts will find their way, but only heaven knows.
And all i can do, is hope and pray.
Cause heaven knows.

Why i live in despair, cause wide awake or dreaming.
I know she's never there.
And all the time i act so brave, i'm shaking inside.
Why does it hurt me so ?

Maybe my love will come back someday, only heaven knows.
And maybe our hearts will find their way, but only heaven knows.
And all i can do, is hope and pray.
Cause heaven knows.

life is a rollercoaster

life is a rollercoaster, just gotta ride it.

indeed, it is.

been going through this emotional rollercoaster for the past week... but why does it all have to start now?!

honestly speaking, it affected me big time & still does.
truth hurts. reality kills. maturity sucks.
no point pressing for an answer or pursuing something that'll never go the way i want it to.

i know i have to let you go.
i can never be as important as i wanna be.
afterall, we are both unsure about what things will be like when i return.
perhaps you would have already forsaken me, perhaps i would have already forgotten all about you.

i'm sorry but i need to let you go.
nevertheless, i still love you. and i always will.

Counting down to Perth

let me see...

2 weeks & 2 days more, i'll be on my way to Perth.

that also narrows down to 2 more weekends to spend with the clique (considering the fact that we only meetup during weekends these days) =(

i can't imagine how accelerated time feels to me now. everyday just passes by so quickly.

with the endless parties that i'm attending, the awesome clubbing nights that i never miss out on, not forgetting the aimless nights when my clique-ers and i bum around in town w/o having any activity in mind.
but its all good. at least i get to spend some quality moments with everyone that i've known in this past year & a half.

i've been asked a couple of times, "when's your farewell party?"...
sorry guys, but i doubt there'll be any.

simply due to insufficient time left. and also insufficient funds! gosh!

but i promise, one last clubbing session with all of you.
oh, and for some others, dinner soon?

"2 more weekends" sounds a little too devastating for me,
'cause ever since work started out for me 4 mths ago,
the only time i really look forward to have always been weekends!
oh man!
as much as how i anticipate the new lifestyle that i'll have there,
i simply can't leave everything behind. it's easier said than done.

all the memories, all my loved ones, all the fun, all the tears, all the laughter.

i'm also shocked at how many things one has to go through,
just to finally get on that 5-hours flight to Perth,
and get a whole new life there.

application for visa, which btw requires u to answer this 3-pages full of medical history questions.
there were 2 particular questions which i hesitated upon reading them...
"Do you consume alcohol?" If yes, ____ a day.
"Do you, or have you ever smoked tobacco?" If yes, ____ a day.

Eh come on lah! yes i do drink, i do smoke... but how do u expect me to calculate how much i consume everyday?! duhhh!
besides, i don't drink everyday ya know!

and then there were chest x-ray, medical check-up...
anyhow... i've finally gotten my visa...

final thing to do....
grab an air ticket & get on that plane!

so meanwhile, while i'm still here....
lets just cherish the LOUD moments that you guys are definitely gonna miss when i'm gone.
And i seriously hope that someone can takeover my place as the "Glue"....
i still wanna be known as a member of Justtheclique when i return from Perth.

oh! and not forgetting....
Happy 21st Birthday Winston!
great party!
will upload my pics once i get my camera back!

Happy 20th Birthday Blackie Cai!
haha...
i love the 2years +++ friendship with u.
and its amazing how black you've become over these 2 years.... gawh!

start counting down now........................

the act of betrayal

hasn't exactly been a wonderful week for me.

it simply hurts to be betrayed by the people you love and you know that when this happens, there's no turning back.

everything will just end without a proper goodbye.

i can't bring myself to forgive people who have hurt me,
especially those whom i've entrusted all my secrets to,
whom i assumed could stay with me till the end of the race.

it scares me big time,
because i never ever expected these people to betray me.

i never know who's genuinely nice to me, who's not.

i feel like i was being made use of all the time, right from the start.

the person who i've cared for & doted on has been doing so many things behind my back.

i gave him a chance to explain himself, long time ago.

he never took the chance, he chose to hide it from me.

i promised myself i'll never forgive him.
simply because i can't bring myself to.

and right now,

i needa work on mending someone else's heart.

someone who really needs me now.

someone who needs all the care, concern & love in the world.

i'm here for you.

When your world Breaks down and the voices tell you, Turn around.
When your dreams give out, I will carry you.
When the stars go blind and the darkness starts to flood your eyes
When you're fallin' behind, I will carry you.

not forgetting my besties - Levin & Keith

thanks for tolerating my occasional intolerable tantrums, my wild temper & my endless grumbles.

Levin, good one on sat!

Keith, thanks for saying sorry. lol i'm sorry too.

iloveyouguys!

i've finally realised.

yeap. i've finally realised.

there's really no point in me holding on to something/someone so tightly.

i should've realised it last year when tears couldn't stop rolling down my face but i told myself i wanted to give it one more try, to make everything work, to make everyone stay together.

i've tried, i really have.

but it seems that i'm the only one trying, the last one standing.

i don't know what the future holds for everyone, for myself.

but i do know that they are not the ones whom i can hold on to till the day i die.

tears welled in my eyes when i watched Sex And The City.

"Isn't it supposed to be a happy/funny show?" you would ask....

it made me sad anyway. not 'cause my love life is empty but 'cause i realised that my friendship with everyone is as screwed up as my love life.

it feels good to be surrounded by good-lookers wherever i go. but whats the point of showcasing them for their looks when at the end of the day, they are just good-lookers who come & go out of my life within a blink of the eye.

when i raised that question to my friends, all they did was to pacify me and say things that they know will make me happy for a short while.

i know its not meant to be.

there's really no point in me wasting my tears on them.

i should never have prioritised them 'cause it was doomed right from the start.

i never knew it was so fragile, so superficial, so hypocritical.

i chose to ignore people's comments but come to think of it, their comments are true.

i hate to say this.

but i should have never let my old friends go.

it was a mistake.

not that i wanna go back to them.

but its a mistake i wish i didnt commit.

i've tried, i've cried, i've learnt and i'm finally letting go.

randomness.... as usual

Oh my God! can you believe it?
my laptop crashed on me!!! GRRRR!!

F***!!!!

all my photos, my memories from the past....
when i was still a kiddo....
oh man....

anyway, life's been looking pretty good.
am back at the cathay & everyday at work is just like sitting in a cafe, typing on the laptop.
the only complain is, i'm totally zonked out at the end of the day.

am lookin' forward to July!

not only will i be leaving for australia, i'll be gg to BKK with Zach before that! :)

my old flame, lol.

im keeping my fingers crossed, hope that it'll be fun.

'cause Z isnt exactly an avid shopper!

alrightey, will be going to church later at 5pm
followed by clubbing tonight at st james.

ha. talk about being holy.

man, i so am. (sarcasm, of course.)

if i bump into y'all, say hi alright!

have fun!
xoxo

always be my baby by David Cook

im so in love with david cook's rendition of "always be my baby"!!!!

totally awesome!! it melts my heart whenever i listen to it. considering the no. of times i listen to it daily, i think my heart has been liquidified already. HAHA okay lame!

the combination of his deep/husky voice accompanied by the rock music.... and not forgetting the climax when he hit that high note and shouted out loud... my goodness... totally melted, gone!

very nice, really!!!

its the first song on my imeem playlist. i removed the "shuffle play" function so that everyone can get to listen to this amazing version of David's.

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not forgetting another song that has been accompanying me at work.

Better In Time by Leona Lewis. nice, catchy & good vocals.

better than Bleeding Love.

i'm actually looking for the version they play at Play or Fab Sunday (thats if they do). yes, the AJ version. i think they've been playing it at Play.

so any kind soul out there who's willing to send it to me, let me know yeah :)

Get Tie'd Down!

*yawn* enough of the crappy emo shit.
since Mr. X already knows tt my entry was about him, cool!

now, let me show u this cool party that i attended.
glamorously hosted by Desmond Wong!
thanks for inviting :)

then again, how can i not show pics of a glamorous party?!

here goes....

yeap not forgetting my new hair which my clique hasnt even seen yet.

the first banner (other than the directions given at the entrance) the guests see.

now this is so cool. its like desmond's album launch or something! haha.

the first photo taken with the host/bday boy :)

the grp of pple i came together with.

j**** ; just in case anonymity is required.


roderick ;)

julius.samuel.matin.jane

matin.sebastian

pierre & i

seb & i

alvin.roderick

alvin & i

jeremy & i

duncan & i

benjamin & i

matin.jane.duncan.pierre

samuel & i

aloysius & i

sherlyn & i

jane.desmond.seb

cake-cutting time. desmond's making 3 wishes.

grp shot. pardon me but i don't know their names. let me try...
bruce.desmond.??.jane (i just need that one name)

alrightey, thats all folks.
once again, thanks for the wonderful party desmond!
Happy Birthday Desmond! :)