Counting down to Perth

let me see...

2 weeks & 2 days more, i'll be on my way to Perth.

that also narrows down to 2 more weekends to spend with the clique (considering the fact that we only meetup during weekends these days) =(

i can't imagine how accelerated time feels to me now. everyday just passes by so quickly.

with the endless parties that i'm attending, the awesome clubbing nights that i never miss out on, not forgetting the aimless nights when my clique-ers and i bum around in town w/o having any activity in mind.
but its all good. at least i get to spend some quality moments with everyone that i've known in this past year & a half.

i've been asked a couple of times, "when's your farewell party?"...
sorry guys, but i doubt there'll be any.

simply due to insufficient time left. and also insufficient funds! gosh!

but i promise, one last clubbing session with all of you.
oh, and for some others, dinner soon?

"2 more weekends" sounds a little too devastating for me,
'cause ever since work started out for me 4 mths ago,
the only time i really look forward to have always been weekends!
oh man!
as much as how i anticipate the new lifestyle that i'll have there,
i simply can't leave everything behind. it's easier said than done.

all the memories, all my loved ones, all the fun, all the tears, all the laughter.

i'm also shocked at how many things one has to go through,
just to finally get on that 5-hours flight to Perth,
and get a whole new life there.

application for visa, which btw requires u to answer this 3-pages full of medical history questions.
there were 2 particular questions which i hesitated upon reading them...
"Do you consume alcohol?" If yes, ____ a day.
"Do you, or have you ever smoked tobacco?" If yes, ____ a day.

Eh come on lah! yes i do drink, i do smoke... but how do u expect me to calculate how much i consume everyday?! duhhh!
besides, i don't drink everyday ya know!

and then there were chest x-ray, medical check-up...
anyhow... i've finally gotten my visa...

final thing to do....
grab an air ticket & get on that plane!

so meanwhile, while i'm still here....
lets just cherish the LOUD moments that you guys are definitely gonna miss when i'm gone.
And i seriously hope that someone can takeover my place as the "Glue"....
i still wanna be known as a member of Justtheclique when i return from Perth.

oh! and not forgetting....
Happy 21st Birthday Winston!
great party!
will upload my pics once i get my camera back!

Happy 20th Birthday Blackie Cai!
haha...
i love the 2years +++ friendship with u.
and its amazing how black you've become over these 2 years.... gawh!

start counting down now........................

the act of betrayal

hasn't exactly been a wonderful week for me.

it simply hurts to be betrayed by the people you love and you know that when this happens, there's no turning back.

everything will just end without a proper goodbye.

i can't bring myself to forgive people who have hurt me,
especially those whom i've entrusted all my secrets to,
whom i assumed could stay with me till the end of the race.

it scares me big time,
because i never ever expected these people to betray me.

i never know who's genuinely nice to me, who's not.

i feel like i was being made use of all the time, right from the start.

the person who i've cared for & doted on has been doing so many things behind my back.

i gave him a chance to explain himself, long time ago.

he never took the chance, he chose to hide it from me.

i promised myself i'll never forgive him.
simply because i can't bring myself to.

and right now,

i needa work on mending someone else's heart.

someone who really needs me now.

someone who needs all the care, concern & love in the world.

i'm here for you.

When your world Breaks down and the voices tell you, Turn around.
When your dreams give out, I will carry you.
When the stars go blind and the darkness starts to flood your eyes
When you're fallin' behind, I will carry you.

not forgetting my besties - Levin & Keith

thanks for tolerating my occasional intolerable tantrums, my wild temper & my endless grumbles.

Levin, good one on sat!

Keith, thanks for saying sorry. lol i'm sorry too.

iloveyouguys!

i've finally realised.

yeap. i've finally realised.

there's really no point in me holding on to something/someone so tightly.

i should've realised it last year when tears couldn't stop rolling down my face but i told myself i wanted to give it one more try, to make everything work, to make everyone stay together.

i've tried, i really have.

but it seems that i'm the only one trying, the last one standing.

i don't know what the future holds for everyone, for myself.

but i do know that they are not the ones whom i can hold on to till the day i die.

tears welled in my eyes when i watched Sex And The City.

"Isn't it supposed to be a happy/funny show?" you would ask....

it made me sad anyway. not 'cause my love life is empty but 'cause i realised that my friendship with everyone is as screwed up as my love life.

it feels good to be surrounded by good-lookers wherever i go. but whats the point of showcasing them for their looks when at the end of the day, they are just good-lookers who come & go out of my life within a blink of the eye.

when i raised that question to my friends, all they did was to pacify me and say things that they know will make me happy for a short while.

i know its not meant to be.

there's really no point in me wasting my tears on them.

i should never have prioritised them 'cause it was doomed right from the start.

i never knew it was so fragile, so superficial, so hypocritical.

i chose to ignore people's comments but come to think of it, their comments are true.

i hate to say this.

but i should have never let my old friends go.

it was a mistake.

not that i wanna go back to them.

but its a mistake i wish i didnt commit.

i've tried, i've cried, i've learnt and i'm finally letting go.

randomness.... as usual

Oh my God! can you believe it?
my laptop crashed on me!!! GRRRR!!

F***!!!!

all my photos, my memories from the past....
when i was still a kiddo....
oh man....

anyway, life's been looking pretty good.
am back at the cathay & everyday at work is just like sitting in a cafe, typing on the laptop.
the only complain is, i'm totally zonked out at the end of the day.

am lookin' forward to July!

not only will i be leaving for australia, i'll be gg to BKK with Zach before that! :)

my old flame, lol.

im keeping my fingers crossed, hope that it'll be fun.

'cause Z isnt exactly an avid shopper!

alrightey, will be going to church later at 5pm
followed by clubbing tonight at st james.

ha. talk about being holy.

man, i so am. (sarcasm, of course.)

if i bump into y'all, say hi alright!

have fun!
xoxo

always be my baby by David Cook

im so in love with david cook's rendition of "always be my baby"!!!!

totally awesome!! it melts my heart whenever i listen to it. considering the no. of times i listen to it daily, i think my heart has been liquidified already. HAHA okay lame!

the combination of his deep/husky voice accompanied by the rock music.... and not forgetting the climax when he hit that high note and shouted out loud... my goodness... totally melted, gone!

very nice, really!!!

its the first song on my imeem playlist. i removed the "shuffle play" function so that everyone can get to listen to this amazing version of David's.

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not forgetting another song that has been accompanying me at work.

Better In Time by Leona Lewis. nice, catchy & good vocals.

better than Bleeding Love.

i'm actually looking for the version they play at Play or Fab Sunday (thats if they do). yes, the AJ version. i think they've been playing it at Play.

so any kind soul out there who's willing to send it to me, let me know yeah :)

Get Tie'd Down!

*yawn* enough of the crappy emo shit.
since Mr. X already knows tt my entry was about him, cool!

now, let me show u this cool party that i attended.
glamorously hosted by Desmond Wong!
thanks for inviting :)

then again, how can i not show pics of a glamorous party?!

here goes....

yeap not forgetting my new hair which my clique hasnt even seen yet.

the first banner (other than the directions given at the entrance) the guests see.

now this is so cool. its like desmond's album launch or something! haha.

the first photo taken with the host/bday boy :)

the grp of pple i came together with.

j**** ; just in case anonymity is required.


roderick ;)

julius.samuel.matin.jane

matin.sebastian

pierre & i

seb & i

alvin.roderick

alvin & i

jeremy & i

duncan & i

benjamin & i

matin.jane.duncan.pierre

samuel & i

aloysius & i

sherlyn & i

jane.desmond.seb

cake-cutting time. desmond's making 3 wishes.

grp shot. pardon me but i don't know their names. let me try...
bruce.desmond.??.jane (i just need that one name)

alrightey, thats all folks.
once again, thanks for the wonderful party desmond!
Happy Birthday Desmond! :)

why do i even care?!

yes i know. my blog entries hadn't exactly been joyous or pleasing.

but well, whats a blog for right? its for VERBAL DIARRHOEA!!

let's just say that i've never really been contented with the way things are. one moment i can openly declare on Facebook that "Jane is very contented with the way things are" & another moment my msn will show "there's a limit to my patience." what the hell do i want? i have no idea at all.
but then again, its true. some things really test my patience big time. let's not mention the "some people" part although im pretty sure the person who's reading this will be able to find out that this entry is arrowed to him.

i swear the feelings died off (ok this is gonna make it so damn bloody obvious) but then....... okay, lets get this straight. im very appreciative that (lets name this person Mr. X) Mr. X bothers to meet me, bring me here & there and club with me (shit, too obvious). i don't deny the fact that Mr. X is damn nice to me. BUT.... the ego part.... omg! really puts my patience to test BIG TIME! yeah i know, everyone has their own ego and i know mine ain't that little BUT.... don't need to be so egoistic till ure totally insensitive to my bloody feelings & hurt me right.
i must admit that sometimes Mr. X can be quite sweet but well.... there r just times when he gets totally obnoxious n pisses me off!
i mean, c'mon lah, be nice to me & dote on me while u can!!!!!!!
can dedicate more time to me right.......
sighhhh.... whenever i get very pissed off, after awhile Mr. X somehow knows what to say/do to appease me and believe me, it works! what a good friend i have in him.

enough of the verbal diarrhoea!
work's been bad. but ill be transferred to Shaw Centre as of tomorrow! shall be an office lady! haha.
but taking the lift all the way to 19th floor should be annoying. the bloody lift stops at almost every level!!! i might even be late 'cause of the lift! well... but then again, meeting friends in town after work should be more convenient :)

i want a new Apple Mac Book! the price has dropped so much that it has become so affordable!!!!
definitely looking forward to studying in Australia although weekends w/o the clique will definitely be different..... :(

speaking of leaving for Australia, i heard that the clique-ers will be organising a party for me!! yipee!! not forgetting my own party at the beginning of July. venue, well .... hasn't been decided yet. invites will be out soon.....

thanks y'all.

its been a long time

its been quite some time since i last updated the blog.

oh well, everyday is the same for me. work, home, sleep. and our meet-up sessions have really lessened hell lot. 

its not exactly like before, during sch hols when we bummers will hang out in town till late or go for car rides. i don't know why.

its sad how some things will never & can never go my way. 

its sad that no matter what i do, things will always happen over & over again. 

seriously, i'll be leaving in 'bout 3 mths time. there's still lotsa time u might think, but time passes by quickly. and i really wanna make good use of this 3 mths, to spend all the time i have with my beloved. 

i don't wanna regret not having enough beautiful memories to bring with me to Perth. seriously, i don't know how im gonna live w/o these bunch of pple when im in Aust. life is bound to be boring but ill learn to adapt to the new lifestyle.

But meanwhile, all i wanna do is to make full use of the remaining time i have in S'Pore. 

recently, i've met a new bunch of fabulous pple. nice & sweet but at the end of the day, they are still from the same community (if you pple know what i mean). well, its not exactly bad but its just... arghhhh i don't know how to describe the kind of feeling i have. 

there were so many times that i said i wanna get away from them but i simply can't. its not easy. i've grown to love them & depend on them. its like w/o them, my world will crumble into pieces. 

there were so many times when i told myself "Jane Chia, u need another life of your own!" but its not easy. i can't live w/o friends, can't live w/o them. 

the thought of them makes me smile & at times, cry. its either i'm over-sensitive (yes, u guys r nodding your heads!) or they are not sensitive enough. 

i don't know how this entry came about but i guess its just the aftermath of quarreling with someone whom i really care for & love. the tiffs are never-ending and its tiring. i know u agree. and despite the countless times that we talked & decided to put a stop to it, it just doesnt work. 

i guess there's nth more to talk about 'cause we've talked bout it over & over again. 

i really appreciate your effort in trying to talk things out the other time & yes, no matter wat, we're BFFs forever :)

i don't know what i'm after. i'm just feeling empty. feeling helpless. feeling sick. feeling grouchy. feeling depressed.

i need all the love i can have man. 

can i count on you clique-ers? i hope i can.

Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger!

Super cool! Check this out! :)

justtheclique's 1st anniversary

last saturday 15th Mar '08 was the most memorable and delightful day for me.

im happy to say that all my efforts has not gone down the drain because it was almost full attendance & everyone participated actively.

this time round, i'm glad that i decided to hold this :)

lemme tell u what happened that day.
as usual, most of the clique-ers were late.

i think the initial time we planned on meeting up was 10am. it was dragged to 12pm but at the very last minute, everyone decided on 2pm. haha but still, some pple still turned up at 3, 4, 5pm. but... louis, gary, levin n keith were the earliest to reach sentosa! good boys! :)

then we checked into the room and ran up the stairs to check out the private jacuzzi that we were anticipating....
oh! not forgetting the "waterfall", slides n big pool that were awaiting us at the basement. the boys were so mischievous, they had water wrestling and kept splashing water on the only girl! hmph! but looking at their laughters and cute moves made me feel that its all worthwhile! really! they had so much happiness on their faces, i'm so proud of them & happy that they are my friends! :)
gary was so violent! we should have recorded how he pushed n slapped edison's head during water wrestling.... and how edison fell off winston's shoulders n how gary eventually fell off levin's shoulders as well.
who could ever miss louis lye's signature laughter! hahahaha he laughs non-stop and once its triggered, it never stops :P

without having enough time to dry ourselves, we jumped into the private jacuzzi we have on our rooftop IMMEDIATELY after the swimming session!
it was sooooo fun. a jacuzzi that could originally fit only 2 persons turned out to fit 7 boys n 1 girl!

hahaha it was absolute fun n pleasure! really... even though we had to curl up our legs, but its the best fun i've ever had. whats more, i got to lie in the arms of 7 hot boys :D

and as soon as matthew whipped out his canon camera, the camera-whores started posing for the camera n it eventually became a photo-taking session when everyone joined in. we took hot photos. haha really! pretending to be intimate and holding each other in our arms.

then the late-comers turned up one-by-one and were glued to the Wii set that i warned Winston not to bring, for fear that everyone will refuse to leave the Wii controller and my fear became reality! haha! they were like kids, screaming and getting excited over the game. but still, i had to pull them out of the room because everyone were starving and after 30mins, we finally left the room and walked to Palawan beach's Koufu foodcourt.

then it goes on...... ill update more... hahaha

here are a few of the MANY photos that we took :)
more will be uploaded when matt returns from BKK & when i finish receiving from monica!

the entourage. *note* this isn't the whole grp. many ppl came later.
imagine how many ppl were squeezing in the room!

@one of the pit-stops of our amazing race.
both players have to take a pic in bikini tops together! smart matt!

hungry ppl walked to palawan beach's 7-11 & visited the tribal tower.

we just couldnt get enough of the jacuzzi!

Officially graduated!

guess what??!!

the bummer & slacker has officially graduated.

i don't know how i did it but it must be the works of God :)

will be going to Perth in end of June.

but im in a dilemma of choosing b/w UWA and Curtin.

b/w a 3-years n 2-yrs course.

but yeah, the fact is i'll be gone for awhile.

gonna miss everyone back in S'pore.

Thank You for Coming!!

a big thank you to everyone who took the time off the endless CNY visitings to attend Levin's & my wedding birthday. lol

the process of planning the party was good ; like brainstorming of ideas & the fun-nest part was the grocery shopping....

here is a list of pple i'd sincerely like to express my gratitude to:
Levin, thx for sharing the joy with me. it was a gr8 party nevertheless.
Derrick, thx for helping out with the deco stuff.
Jovan, thx for helping out with the deco & food stuff.
Wanhua, thx for helping out with the deco & food stuff & thanks for beautifying my nails. thx for the beautiful multi-coloured dress ;)
Keith, thx for remembering to bring the red carpet. thx for helping to clear up after e party. thx for helping me to wear my shoes due to the inconvenience caused by my beautiful nails. thx for the perfume & the bottle of liquor ;)
Winston, thx for taking the trouble to help us buy stuff(yusheng, guest book, gift voucher) within such a short notice. ;)
Noel, thx for dropping by to pass me the Moet champagne that u bought me ;)
Samuel&Nicholas, thx for attending the party & thx for the 2.4km run "stop-watch". lol ;)
Travis, thx for attending the party & thx for the red stuff inside the brown envelope. u shldnt have but thank u ;)
Zach&Jimmy, thx for attending the party & obeying the theme. thx for the wine & liquor ;)
Monica, Abdul, Matt, Serr & Alvin, thx for attending the party & thx for your lovely dress & earrings. ;)
ALVIN, thx for helping out as the party's photographer!!really very grateful for that. you take beautiful pics. thks ;)
Hafidz, thx for attending the party & thx for the beautiful necklace. i like! ;)
MatthewOng&Junjie, thx for the blusher. haha u bluffed me, thot u say u didnt get it from DFS?? and thx for the chocs from chocz. lol thx matt, for attending the party ;)
Nigel&Shuhui, thx for attending the party. nigel, thx for the tee. love it, very nice ;) and thx for the ride to club. ure a good driver ;)
Will, thx for attending the party and thx for the bag ;)
Louis&Eric, thx for attending the party & thx for the angbao ;)
Moses, thx for helping us with grocery shopping & paying for us 1st. thx for helping out with deco stuff & thx for coming!!! ;)

last but not least, thanks Rod, Derek, Kenneth, Gary, Vincent, Melvin, Edison and others for attending my party. im sorry if i didnt list ur name. i need the grp photos to recall & i haven gotten it yet..
so i sincerely apologise for being utterly heartless.

the party was fun, at certain moments. clubbing after that was fun-ner with keith getting drunk & dancing&sweating away like a crazy monkey. the others were quite high as well cuz we drank vodka blackcurrant outside the club.

and i had to explain to each n everyone who asked me why i was dressed in a 881-like outfit. haha that was fun.

yeah really wanna thank everyone for gracing the event. each n everyone of u plays a part :)

***pics will be posted up as soon as i get hold 0f them.

ciao

CNY 1st day

it was the 1st day of CNY when matt & i met up for coffee in town.

since both of us didnt need to visit relatives on the 1st day, we thought "why not? lets jus meet up n chill."

so we smoked, drank coffee n savoured the muddy mud pie. then chilled till 6plus when levin came to join us. followed by keith, wannie, edison, alvin n matt.

yepp then we went over to dynasty for a night of crazy n happy singing. haha alvin tickled me like hell with his medley of old songs..... which i actually know. man, getting old....

have been visiting Dynasty so often that i think the lady recognises us. haha coolness.

coffee club's muddy mud pie

asked the waitress to snap a pic of us cuz we tried & tried & tried

matt always has this boyish look

now thats spastic

okay, more on the normal side

while we were smoking, i took a shot 0f him which i think looks superb!

levin&i @ paragon mkt place ; plan'g for bday party

wannie & i at swensen's

matt & edi

myself & keith

Happy Chinese New Year! :)

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!!
CNY eve this year is good.

had reunion dinner, as usual.

Met up with Derek, Derrick, Winston, Edison, Will & Wannie @ CityHall.

we walked through the underpass and went to River Ang Bao.

at the strike of midnight, we welcomed the Year of the Rat with spectacular fireworks.

Really beautiful, especially those spiral patterned ones.

simply awesome!

and what beats counting down to CNY with your clique. :)
edison, jane & winston
(wins, stop tryin' 2 be macho with that plaster la!not working! lol)

derrick&jane
the lil young boy.

winston!

us, walkin' along river angbao.

us, cracking out brains to figure out how many "Rats" there are all over River Ang Bao.

will & i ;our amusing yet ridiculous act.

queueing for snacks.
tu-tu kueh, tea egg & muah chee :)

they stole my food!

will, wannie and edison.

edi tried to act cute as well. i guess?!

our super lame photo shot taken outside SMU

will & jane - in the elevator ; on our way to catch Juno

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and by the way, Juno is a good movie.
you guys shld go catch it!

and here's wishing all of u a very Happy, Prosperous, Successful & Lovely Chinese New Year1

good luck on your red packets collection!!!:):)

Peace out, xoxo!

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goodness

my goodness.
i haven't been blogging yet when i checked the blog, i have 2 long hate-mails on my tagboard.

the respond from the old me would be "fuck lah. cant these pple fuck off!"
right now, the respond is just "woohoo. amazing man. never blog still can get tags. coolness!"

i mean, seriously, ive grown outta it and it doesnt really get to me anymore.
well, it does affect me a lil. but nah, i'll just reply and forget bout it.

i didnt club last week. good thing!

many tests and project deadlines coming up. BAD!!!

jane's & levin's bday celebrations launching soon. AWESOME!!

final exams, graduation, off to Australia! FABULOUS!!!!

yayyyy cant wait all the gooooooood stuff to happen.
i wonder if these pple will still tag on my tagboard when im in Australia. i hope they do. 'cause that'll be the only source of amusement i get ...that can help me get away from my books! :):)


alrightey. back to my books!
keep tagging! hahaha

my 1st birthday gift

i'll be turning 20 in less than a month's time.

but i've already received my 1st birthday gift.

yay... from my dear friend whom i've known for omg,

almost 4 years now.

yeahhh thanks for colouring my hair for me, Justin :):)

here's a sneak peek at my new hair colour!

yeap yeap..

THANKS justin!!

Loves :):)