i hate being lied to! its obvious ure with her, why dont u jus tell me the fucking truth?!? i'd rather u tell me ure with her, than tell me some other shit! i really gave my heart & soul to this, hoping that something would come out of us. but u've been lying... i hate to leave, but it seems like thats the only solution isn't it?

P.S.: i still love U, i do.

**anyone who's reading this, pls dont leave any comments. i dont need any of those right now.

thanks louis

louis came over to kembangan!then we went to starbucks at centrepoint after my work. thanks dude!

went to sentosa to tan today. and camwhored alone! lol. after what has happened, i needa chill man.

arghhh he's so lovable!!! hur hur.....


val's bdae celebration was so fun!
val rocks!
happy bdae baby!!
she's on her way back from Shanghai!! on the airplane! will reach SG at 6am!! cant wait to see her. miss her so much!! :(

ran for an hour today! so shiok!! but when i was doing my weights training, the gym was bout to close... and i still haven't bath.... didnt wanna miss the last bus. yeapp

got my results today.. FUCK FUCK! i FAILED Marketing!!! C***B**!!! arghhh die la. must take supp paper. FUCK!!!! mktg sucks!! im a blardy finance student la!! yet i got C+ for finance. WHAT THE FUCK! sorry im cursing & swearing. but deep down inside, im fucking sad. sigh... thought i was smart. i am smart, just not hard-working enough. C***B**!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!

WHAT A FUCKED UP DAY!!!!!!
but gym was GGGGRRRRREEEEEAAAATTTTT!

should i stay?

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you'd been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel's heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin' proof of what love is about

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I'm down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You're still in my thoughts

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I…?

This time its done
It'll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it's sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn't matter somehow
But you were livin' proof of what love is about…

run bitch!

woke up at 6am today and headed to the california fitness :) ran 50 mins!!! woohoo!! shiok shiok! wanna do it everyday for the whole of this week!! yeapp yeapp!! and also needa tan damn badly... i needa cover myself in a "black" suit!!

girls, sunday alrite!!! omg, so scared!!

p.s. received a msg "i am sorry abt yesterday" at 2.53am
decided to reply at 8am with "its ok. take care."

know what it means? i guess u pple are smart pple!! i've had enough, seriously. just feel stupid. but i really did give my all. sigh.

its over..

everything is over, i think. its hurts to have feelings for someone who isnt appreciative of what you're doing. or am i just being paranoid? but one thing that i know for sure is, i've been the stupid one all these while. very very stupid. it hurts terribly.

p.s. nursing my wound now. trying to forget.

*ahem* day

yesterday, val's bdae.... it was an *ahem* day. so far, only matt, val & feli knows! lol... esther still sleeping i guess... ggrrrrrr!

yeapp and it was a cool night as well! lol :) :) :)

multi-tasking to the max!

woah, ever since school holidays began, i've been multi-tasking!! damn hardcore! i swear! so hardcore that i haven't had time to tan & gym :(

i have 3 tuition kids alrdy! schedule fully packed. whatsmore, i gotta help my dad at his office and also work in the evenings on mon, tues & thurs at the clinic. fwah! damn shiong!! tell me, isnt that hardcore enough?! oh man..... may even have to miss out on my best friend's bdae celebration..... sad sad..... but i'll try to make it okie darling? :)

but i've realised teaching can be quite fun. although this pri 4 boy that i just started teaching is quite mischievous, but quite cute at times.... lol quite cheeky also..... but teaching is fun! and its gd money!! WHAHAHAHAHA im like slacking at my dad's office now la!!! freezing in here......

bye all!

omg i love ben so so so much!

some things should remain unchanged. yes indeed! u like the way we are, so do i.
fine, i wont pressurize u. lets remain this way then. love ya!

exams be gone!

its just gggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrreat!! my exams are so over! after few nights of gruesome mugging, after few sleepless nights! im finally able to enjoy! but all's not over yet, im giving tuition and working at the clinic and helping my dad at his office. man how busy can a person get? how i wish i have more time. its all the way from morning till evening..... shag man.... i need time for gym, for tan and for friends!!

btw, my baby niece just contracted hand foot mouth disease. poor child, she's in pain and crying all the time. sigh donno how she got that virus :( i really feel the pain...... hurting me cuz i love her so much. i hate to see her crying and not eating anything. sighhh poor baby. jus hope she'll get well soon!

wed is coming!! and its.............. val's bdae celebration! heard that they're gonna go for movies in the afternn and man, im so gonna have to miss that cuz i have tuition in the morning, then helping out at dad's office and another tuition in the evening. hur hur.... will only be able to reach town at 8-ish? gosh! but we're going to party world!! woohoo! i wanna sing sing sing!!!!! :)

guess cheyanne MUST be enjoying herself at BKK now!!!! have fun!!! :)

suntanned alone!

woohoo! so shiok! i woke up at 8am and travelled all the way to Sentosa to get some sun!!! alone man! hahaha 1st time and there's gonna be more! hehehe it seems weird to tan alone... but actually its pretty fun! lol get to enjoy all by myself :)

then met up with my gfs at cheesecake cafe @ siglap. awww that waiter is so cute!! hahaha nice voice, think he's tanned too! lol....
anyway exams on mon & wed but i havent really studied! gosh!

i love tanning!!

yay! another tanning session with my cousin today morning! as usual, met up at 9am and left sentosa at 1pm.... coolness!!
then went to billy bombers for lunch! woohoo! shiookkkkk!




after that, rushed to changi airport to meet louis for study session :)



yeappp thats how i spent my wed! :D

weijie's bbq

went to pasir ris park for weijie's bbq. i hate bbq!! cuz the pits are difficult to locate and its warm, sticky, dirty.... hahaha but we had fun camwhoring and catching up with each other. especially liyana! crazy babe!! lol she's always ready to pose for the camera.... can never ever capture a candid shot of her la!

left at 11-ish... was dead beat!! *yawn*

sun-tanned today!

woke up at 7.45am to check the weather again! and yay finally the sun is up! no rain!! woohoo!! made my way to harbour front to meet my cousin. then went to buy subway sandwich!! ehehehe...

the journey to sentosa quite sian... must take shutter bus from harbour front to sentosa THEN another bus within sentosa to siloso beach. started tanning and i fell aslp!!! haha the heat la! fell aslp while listening to jazzy music....

then turned to tan my back.... left at 12.30pm :) went to PS after that..... yay i love taning!but ah, im RED all over and its freakin painful!! but thanks to my boss(Dr. Victor) for giving me the cream!!! helps a little i guess.... yeappp..